Doesn't MATTER

It always makes me think "what kind of life I want to have. "

For example 

-life surrounded by loved ones and stay as a house wife. 

-life as a working robot and slave for 24/7

I want both of that in a positive way. 

It's not like I want to work as a slave or stay home and do laundries. 

But I just can't decide ONLY ONE 

I want to have it all. 

I hate giving things up. 

I feel stupid for changing myself for someone. 

I want to live my life to the fullest. 

Yes,  there are days that you just waste your time doing nothing.  But at the end of the day, I want to feel that even that day had a meaning in my life.

This country is just too small for me to live my life to the fullest. 

PS

Will live out of Japan.  Tehee